Today is the day where I share my written testimony of my own life within just one year. As many of my readers already know, I am a twenty year old woman who is an avid reader, aspiring author, and a beloved daughter of Jesus Christ. I have also previously given references to my other interests, pursuits, and sometimes my own thoughts and personal feelings. But, never have I opened my heart and bore my soul to any of you. I wish I could speak to you face to face instead of typing these words on a computer screen.
20, my first year in my twenties, nearly the prime of my adult life, and just one year behind a great milestone. My expectations were high, and unfortunately not many of them were met. I will always remember the excitement that flooded my insides as I waited for the day that I would be able to announce myself in my twenties. It was just last summer. A summer spent trying to finally get published. looking for apartments, trying to decide on a profession, planning my life as an autodidact, and making big plans for just one year. For the first time, in two years I was going to actually feel like an adult. For those of you who are past the age eighteen, I am sure you remember the frustration with parents and siblings for not treating you like an adult, let alone acknowledging you as one, the uncertainty of your adulthood, and last but not least the newness of being an adult and the time it took to adjust. I will admit that I did not feel lie a grown up, I felt very much like a child for many reasons. All the sane, I didn’t remain stagnant in my childhood or immaturity. Rather, I viewed this as a time to grow and mature, and establish myself in my adulthood. By the time I reached twenty, I wanted to have my life under control. And guess what? I did have my life have under control. I made very effort I could to achieve all of my goals and dreams for that year. Unfortunately….
What I Wanted From Life At Age Twenty:
- My own apartment
- A job
- Success as an autodidact
- My outside study resources
- Audit/Credit courses
- Writing classes
- Bible college classes
- Fun classes
- A boyfriend
- To travel
- Frequent outings
- Many volunteer opportunities
- A Birthday party celebration
- To attend parties
- To start a Juvenile Justice Ministry
- To reach out to troubled teens
- To join the Big Sister Program
- To gain a tremendous amount of life experience
- To attend driving school
- To get more involved at church
- More adventure
- New skills/talents
- Status as a published writer
- To be more well rounded
- To launch myself as public speaker
- To monetize my blog
- To eagerly plan my 21st birthday
- To hoist parties, events, etc.
- To get involved in my community
Overall, a better life for myself. The reality of this is so few of my plans have been accomplished. It was a huge disappointment for me, I will admit, but all the same my relationship with God the Father didn’t cease. A lot has happened in ways that are unimaginable. Ways that I can’t even explain. I know that this was test of my faith. Did I really trust God? How faithful was I to Him? I must say that each and every situation must speak for itself. Yes, there were times when I worried, doubted, failed, and despaired. When will I go out of Egypt and into the Promised Land? was a question I asked myself. I placed my trust in God’s promises. I knew that He had a glorious plan for me. In the midst of my Expectation Hangover, I found joy in everyday life. Thank you God, for a wonderful year filled with your love, joy, peace, blessings, my hard work, your will, and all of the great memories I have made. Tomorrow, is my twenty first birthday, and I am excited for this new season in life. My testimony is not complete. I have said so little, when there is much to be said. Walk with me as i continue to tell my story. Remeber, you were only given a n introduction.